He amuses even on his deathbed. He was used to indulging people, their customs and concerns. He was tired of being a comedy or simply no one wanted to read the tragedy in his eyes! He is tired of the fact that people treat him like a slave, henceforth he is no longer a clown. He is such a normal, sensual and touching person, but society has engendered in him something from which he will not get rid and will pursue him throughout his life - it's a fear of being misunderstood!
He was tired of being a comedy or simply no one wanted to read the tragedy in his eyes